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I had to write this down. I'm at work right now and am on the phone with a customer who is a gigantic asshole. He thinks he is the biggest Mr. Know-It-All. I hate people like this. He is trying to tell me how Home Depot should run their business. Fuck these stupid fucking idiots.

I hate stupid people. Sometimes these people do make valid points but go about them in the wrong way. They have to call up businesses and tell that business how the business," Should be running things". It makes no sense.

SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!

Now that that's out of the way... On to good stuff... I guess. I have to work this weekend and that sux. I was totally looking forward to being able to wake up next to my baby at no particular time of the day and lounge in bed until we decided to get our asses up. Now that'll have to wait for 2 weeks. Damnit. Oh Well.

That's it for now. Until next time..... Mama lookatme

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It's raining today. I love the rain. It is my second favorite type of weather. I wish I can go outside and write. I love being outside in the rain. It is very soothing and relaxing. We have a Rainfall Sounds CD. The damn thing puts me to sleep all the time. It's awesome. The only downfall to the rain is that San Diegans can't drive in the rain. They cause too many accidents. It's sooooooooo stupid. One time in my life, I would like to visit the Rainforest and experience the rainfall there. I bet it is completely different.

I love reading and writing. I really do. I wish I were a better writer though. Everytime I come up with an idea that sounds really cool and interesting, I get writer's block. The 3 stories I have rolling around in my head, I feel, are pretty good. It's just, everytime I try to pick them back up, I get stuck. The first time the idea comes to me, it floods in uncontrollably. And then, later on, when I go to add more to it, I freeze.

LOST is driving everyone crazy again. I can't wait to find out just what the hell is going on!!! AAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH. Aaron, Claire's baby, is now calling Kate, "MOMMY". What the Fuck Man? The show is driving me clinically insane.

That's it for now. Until next time...... I'm Ron Burgandy???

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Iron Maiden was fucking awesome. With the exception of a few technical problems with microphones and a boring warm-up band, the concert was INCREDIBLE.

Have you ever had that Asshole of a Manager @ work? I have one and he's a big piece of shit. I said hi to the guy this morning as we were passing in the hallway. He looked up @ me and just went about his business. FUCKER. He wouldn't say hi to me. Not that I want him to, but it's pretty considerate to do so, especially in the workplace.

I've been going to the gym lately. Everytime I watch The Biggest Loser, all I want to afterward is WORKOUT. I'm tired of being FAT. I hate they way I look. I can't wait to look better.

It's almost Baseball Season. Fucking Eggs Bacon.

That's it for now. Until Next time..... If you're gonna die, Die With Your Boots On

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Me and my stories. If you read below you will find ot that I have a couple of story ideas rolling around in my head that I can't get out.
Well Another one popped in my head on Friday that is actually pretty dark. It's about a man who writed himself a letter explaining why he has to kill himslef. Set in the 15th century, a man is faced with many, many murders that he has committed. He does not know why he has done these crimes or why they continue to happen or why he has no knowledge of them happening until they are over with.

An excerpt:

I have killed again and again with no knowledge of why or how. Everyone that ever gets close to me ends up six feet under. I wish I did not have to commit these murders. It may have all started the night I killed my father. He went crazy one night and killed my mom and 2 sisters. Than he came for me. I headr him kill my family and knew that i was next. I was ready for him. He did not know that I was expecting him. When he came into my room. I slit his throat with the greatest of ease. There is something I still cannot eplain. I seemed to enjoy it. I obtained a euphoric state. It was like a beast was awakened in me.

It's something I hope i can expand upon.

That's it for now. Until next time..... The Evil The Men Do lives on and on

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My heart beats for you. It's only purpose,

it's only desire is to create life so I can be with you.

In the morning, it wakes me up

next to you.

It lets me know that you're still there.

When my heart has run it's course,

it will beat once more for you.

When it has stpped completely,

it will beat one last beat for you.

Creating peace in my soul.

This weekend has been great. Got alot done. We cleaned most of the apartment. Daniel and I went to the Build a Bear and got Ginny her first Build A Bear. There, you can build a bear, or any various other animal. I let Daniel choose what to create. He chose a bear. I also let him record the sound we put into the bear. It says," I love You Mama". It is in Daniel's voice. I'm oretty sure Ginny loves the bear. It's name is Mojo.

2 more days until Iron Maiden. I can't wait. I'm so pumped.

I spent a lot of money this weekend. More than I wanted to, but oh well. We got a lot of stuff done. I have Monday and Tuesday off. Monday is because the kids have no day care and Tuesday because of Maiden.

That's it for now. Until next time..... Hallowed Be Thy Name ( best Iron Maiden song )

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I wish I was able to apply my creativity and imagination to reality. I have had so many ides to either write or draw or play that, for some reason, I cannot get out. It's a beast that is trapped inside me. One day, the beast will find out how to fly. It'll also figure out how to ignite the flame it has in it's heart. When it does, the beast will be unstoppable. i have 2 songs, 2 stories, and a plethora of drawings that I can't get out of me.

The 2 stories are what I'm most excited about, yet everytime I try to release them, I fail. I either become bored/distracted, or I draw a blank in the writing process. I think I can see myself, in the not distant future, taking a creative writing class. I think that is the spark that will ignite the flame in the beast's heart.

One of the stories is about an Angel. She doesn't know that she is an angel until she meets an angel sent down from heaven to bring her back. The two of them are captured by the FBI for testing and experimentaion. Another angel attempts to save them but is thwarted by a rogue angel who has Damien on his side. Damien, the son of the devil. There is a lot of action of death.

The other story is about Faith, Honor, Devotion, Love, Integrity and Hatred. Set in Medieval Times, Zadine; a night in the King's Army must face his toughedt challenge yet. The love of his life has been betrayed by her guardsman, Horizon Longhearth, and is taken to Firaga. It's a very cool story idea, that I love.

Who knows, maybe one day, you might see my name on the Best Selling Authors List.

That's it for now. Until next time..... Can't think of anything to say. FUCK IT

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Iced Earth is my all-time favorite band. The are amazing. I have an Iced Earth Tattoo on the back of my right forearm. This tattooo is of this character; a Setian named Set Abominae.

They are so full of passion and aggresion. It's the perfect blend of heart, melody and madness. I feel like I have a special bond with this band. The sound, to me, is intoxicating. I hear it and get lost in the world this is Iced Earth.

Jon Schaffer is the creator/leader/owner of the band and has a mind like no other. With the exception of, basically, treating his bandmates like employees, he's an amazing person and musicin. His sound is like no other. He grew up playing his own tunes, not covers. That's what sets him apart from the rest.

Iced Earth has gotten me through some hard times. There have been times where I was Uber-pissed at something and I would get into my car to take a drive. I would throw on Iced Earth and wash all my worries about. I would get so pumped listening to them. It's almost euphoric.

Another band that is nery special to me is none other than Iron Maiden. The are, arguably, the best Rock/Metal band EVER.

I love these guys. I am going to see them in 4 days in LA with my uncle.

There last 3 albums are my 3 favorite.

There is too much to write here to explain all my feelings about Iron Maiden.

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That's it for now. Until next time..... If I ever draw my sword on you. May the good lord strike me dead.