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Blinder, it's Hawk. I'm here. I don't know where I am. I snuck into this office to communicate with you. I think I'm in trouble. I don't remember how I got here, or even when I got here. Get a trace on this computer...... help me Blinder.

My Ginny is sick. It's my fault. I had the flu over New Year's week. Now she has it.
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I hate seeing her sick and there is basically nothing I can do.
I hate that helpless feeling.

When she was going through her ulcer battle, it absolutely killed me. When we were speeding to the hospital and she was next to me, crying her heart out, I was screaming inside.
I knew that I had to be strong for her. It's just sooooo hard to not cry too.
I don't want to do that ever again.
Seeing her in agony, is the worst thing for me. I need to be strong for her...... I try my best.

I know that I'm not the best boyfriend in the world....... but I try my best.
I hate it when we argue, especially when it's over something I know that I could have prevented.
I want to be her knight in shining armor.

....... I wanna grow old with her.

That's it for now. Until next time..... May the force be with you.