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Blinder! I need you help. I've barricaded the door. There are trying to get in. It's only a matter of time; less than an hour. They may kill me........

It's a been a little while since I last posted.

I've started working out at the gym. I woke my ass up at 5:15am and worked out with my baby. I feel so energized and awake. I can't wait to lose weight and be healthy.

19 days till Iron Maiden. YEAH!!!!!!

That's it for now. Until next time..... Follow The Yellow Brick Road.

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Blinder... hurry. I've been found out.

So, I have this story idea that I've been scratching out on paper. I wish I had the ability to write the story. I'm gonna look into taking a night class at Southwestern College. Maybe a creative writing calss. This story idea that I have, to me, is fuckin awesome. I can't wait to able to expand upon it.

I'm gonna join a gym. I can't wait to be healthy. I have such a body/weight issue/complex/ thingy/problem. Was that enough slash marks??? :) I'm tired of wearing a shirt that is tucked in, or not baggy, and my gut protrudes in front of me. I don't like that. I feel so bad about it because I have done nothing abuot it for years. Well, now is the time.

Now is the time to start getting healthy. My goal weight is 230 lbs. I wonder how long it'll take. I know that it won't be as hard as i think it will because i have Ginny to help me. Damn she's awesome. I love her soooooooooo much.

I'm listening to the Mikey SHow on Rock 105.3 and I'm laughing my ass off. I love this show. When it's over, it's time for AM talk radio.

I've noticed, since I listen to a morning talk show, that I am now listening to talk radio in the afternoon. I have been listening to Michael Savage. I have never been one to listen to/ pay attention to/ care about politics..... AT ALL!!! But there is something about his show that i like. I never thought that I would like AM talk radio, but I dig it.

I'm getting older. I like AM talk radio & calssical music. The other day I was @ Game Crazy buying video games and this group of High School kids came in acting like a bunch of jackasses. Then it hit me, that was me 10/12 years ago. I used to act like that and now I'm like, " Wow! Look at this bunch of idiots. How stupid they are!!!"

Holy Shit!!! High School was 7.5 yeasr ago. It's soooooo weird, that life is going sooo fast.

That's it for now. Until next time..... Here's a Shotgun Shell. Talk shit to me again, and you'll meet my shotgun!!!

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Hawk, I've got a team on it right now. You need to get out of there, or find out where you are. They deactivated your goddamn tracker. Be strong. Try to get names, pictures, files... anything. Get back to you when I have more.

Heath Ledger's dead.... wow. I couldn't believe it. The Dark Kinght (Batman) was supposed to be the role of his life. It looks so amazing. I can't wait to see it.

I'm looking forward to joining the gym. I can't wait to start. I wanna go all the time. On Tuesday's, when I watch The Biggest Loser, I feel like a big huge piece of chewed up bubblegum. I feel and look like shit. I'm tired of being overweieght, and tired of people making joking comments about my weight. I want good comments, not bad ones. I know that Ginny will help me through this. I will help her as best I can, as well.

I need motivation. I need a rock to lean on. Ginny is my rock.

That's it for now. Until next time..... I like my sandwich, the way I like my sandwich.

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Blinder, it's Hawk. I'm here. I don't know where I am. I snuck into this office to communicate with you. I think I'm in trouble. I don't remember how I got here, or even when I got here. Get a trace on this computer...... help me Blinder.

My Ginny is sick. It's my fault. I had the flu over New Year's week. Now she has it.
:(
I hate seeing her sick and there is basically nothing I can do.
I hate that helpless feeling.

When she was going through her ulcer battle, it absolutely killed me. When we were speeding to the hospital and she was next to me, crying her heart out, I was screaming inside.
I knew that I had to be strong for her. It's just sooooo hard to not cry too.
I don't want to do that ever again.
Seeing her in agony, is the worst thing for me. I need to be strong for her...... I try my best.

I know that I'm not the best boyfriend in the world....... but I try my best.
I hate it when we argue, especially when it's over something I know that I could have prevented.
I want to be her knight in shining armor.

....... I wanna grow old with her.

That's it for now. Until next time..... May the force be with you.

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Hawk, you there? I haven't heard from you in awhile? Are you okay? Call me!!!

Well, the Chargers lost...... again!!!
I knew going into the game that we were gonna hard pressed to beat the Patriots. WE just didn't play well.
Unlike most of San Diego, I am NOT a bandwagon Chargers Fan. I am a true fan who loves the Chargers and will continue to root for them, even when they suck. OH WELL.
Gotta go to work.

That's it for now. Until next time..... Red means STOP, Green means GO, Yellow means hurry the HELL UP.

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I love my Ginny.
I just got the Iron Maiden tickets. WOO HOO!!!

That's it for now. Until next time... Don't drop the soap.

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Hi Hawk. How are you? What new? How's Michelle?

The chargers game is on Sunday. I hope they kill those fuckin Patriots. San Diego needs the Chargers to go to the Super Bowl. I need to see them in the Super Bowl.

We have my girlfriend's kids this week, I'm excited. I miss those little guys. You know, at first I thought that having a girlfriend with 3 kids was gonna be difficult. The first time we hung out @ The Scoreboard, at the end of the night, we went to her apartment, which is now OUR aprtment. She was telling me about herself and how she had 3 kids. She said that a lot guys she had been talkning to said that they were put off because she had 3 kids. I was a little weirded out by the thought of being interested in a girl with a kid, let alone 3.

WHAT THE HELL IS SO HARD ABOUT IT? I like it. I like being able to help shape a child's life. CJ, Daniel and Tegan are all special in their own ways. I love each of them. I couldn't even think of being without them.

I know what you're thinking.... You haven't been with Ginny for 6 months and you are talking about how you love her and wanna be with her forever and how you love her kids. For all of you neysayers, " FUCK OFF " . I love all 4 of them and will continue to love and spoil them forever.

That's it for today. Until next time...... Beware of the warm yellow current and floating brown trout.




P.S. Will everyone SHUT THE FUCK UP about Britney Spear's. Who cares?

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My Name is Cory.
I'm 25 and live in Imerial Beach.
I live with my girlfriend Virginia, and her 3 kids: CJ, Daniel, Tegan
I love all of them.

I work for The Home Depot, but am looking for other oppurtunities. Working there does not allow me to provide for my family the way I'd like to. Other options that are up on the board right now are: Education, Law Enforcement, Military.

I would like to teach Elementary School. But cannot afford to go to universities and refuse to take out student loans. NO THANK YOU. I don't want to be in debt forever. THe Military is my way to go to school for free. Law Enforcement is an option as well. I went through the police acadmet in 2003. I never did dbecome an oficer though. I had lost interest, but I'm finding myself gaining interest again.

I love pool, video games, reading, music and my family.

That's enough for now. Until next time......... UP THE IRONS

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